BACK FROM THE DEAD — II

Hey, guys! Something after very long inspired me to get back on here. I gave my exams, they went fine. They ended two days ago. I had fun over the weekend. Had terrible mood swings half the day yesterday and got my periods today morning. Caught up with all the stuff that’s been going on so far.
Now, why I’m here is because I started watching Grey’s anatomy today. Never too late, come on. And on the third or fourth episode, there’s this man Mackie who has been on the organ receiver list for a liver for eight months. One of the interns, George, finds him a liver, and nurses the old man back to health. Meanwhile, that old man flirts very openly with George but the kid doesn’t flirt back because he’s straight. After the whole treatment is done, Mackie offers to take George out when the kid comes clean about not being gay. Then Mackie says something that touched my heart. I won’t quote Mackie exactly, but he said something that ran along the lines of, “No one can judge me, I was almost on my death bed. I could do anything that I can. Being fearful wasn't on the table. So I flirted. I never thought you were gay.”
Mackie’s point was to literally do things that you feel like doing, fearlessly. You never know when you’re going towards the light.
And when I watched that scene, I paused and went into a short retrospect of my tiny life that I’ve lived out. I saw that I’ve never held out on anything. I once told a person that I liked them even when I knew they were with someone. That might make me look like the devil but I also asked them that I don’t plan on having a relationship ever but just that I needed them to know. Recently? I started a page along with two of my friends to talk about shit that bothers me as a woman. It’s called shesnotthat_girl on Instagram. Check it out, it’ll do you good. I started talking to a complete stranger. Like, completely. Fortunately, he turned out to be a good person. We’re good friends now. We have names for each other, for God’s sake. Generally, I’ve noticed that people don’t just ask people they met on social media to have a video call but I went for it. I needed to know the person I’ve been pouring my heart out to about my favorite books, cars, and my one and only nemesis. I’ve realized that I’ve done whatever I could’ve done at all points. My biggest flex to the day is that I have no regrets so far. And I promised myself to always let it be that way.

I guess I’m just saying not to hold out on anything. Just make your move. “You live every day, but you die only once,” said Dwight Schrute. You do not want to disappoint that person.

So, let’s all promise to ourselves that we’d try and not let anything go by us?!
That’d be awesome, guys. Trust this weird woman who talks so wisely but is also a damn goofball.